Its only when I see really cute couples that I miss being in a long term relationship…

On the plane ride back from Myanmar to Bangkok I met a couple that I swear looked lk they had been married or at least dating for an extended period of time…to my surprise they had JUST met the week before on the beach in Kosumet and were heading home to their respective countries of Norway and the US…They looked so blissfully happy it made me sad to think that things may not work out between them because of distance…

Sometimes I wonder why distance has to be such an “issue” with relationships or even “potential” relationships…I know and will probably be the first to advocate that long distance relationships don’t work but whatever happened to taking a CHANCE on love or potential love???...

I think our society has become too pragmatic and realistic about something that originally was never meant to be so calculated and reasonable…I realize that physical proximity is essential and necessary in a relationship but a short absence of it shouldn’t ever be a reason not to begin something great???...

Perhaps I only feel this way because I have been non stop traveling now for the past 3 years and in truth don’t see geography as a barrier or a “deal breaker” of any sort to relationships…but that could also be because *I’M* the one always doing the leaving…if I were the one that was left behind I may rethink that last statement …

OR maybe just maybe its simply my hopeless romantic side of me signaling that its still kicking alive and well inside…J

I have a friend from Saskatoon thats doing a summer internship in Toronto and she's hating every moment of it...how i long to trade places with her rite now...how anyone could hate Toronto is beyond me...but i guess if you don't know neone or have no one to see the sights and explore the city with... it can come off as prententious and lonely to some...esp since she's from a town of lk 200ppl...

I can't wait for my exams to be done so that I can relax for the whole of ....2DAYS!!!!....someone remind me why i chose to take summer school again???...

I have a theory that I shouldn't date other law students...i lk dating ppl that have different backgrounds and bring more diversity into a relationship...but at the same time its nice being able to chat with someone about whats central in ure life at the moment and them giving you feedback and advice on the matter versus a blank stare...but i also find that my competitive nature surfaces whenever i'm around ppl that tend to be naturally adversarial since our environment encourages it....don't think thats a good thing...cuse when i argue i can get a LITTLE stubborn on my personal views....alrite FINE...i'm INCREDIBLY stubborn...and will most likely never admit that I am wrong unless you can prove to me that i'm wrong...but proof on a matter is based on my subjective analysis of ure arguments and evidence that you put forth...so really...you will always be wrong in my eyes ...haha

I'm feeling that "I feel insecure about my intelligence" thing again...not cuse its exams...but more so cuse I'm at UVic now and its hard to gage where i stand in the curve...plus these are all the students that got in first year on A averages from Undergrad and mostly 90th percentile on LSATS...lk really wouldn't ANYONE feel insecure around these ppl?!?!?...I feel sometimes that its "their" school and somehow even though I've been theoritically accepted...I'm still in practice an outsider...wonder if that will ever go away...

I hate feeling lk an "outsider"...makes me wonder why i constantly choose to go to new places where that will inevitably be the case...I think it was a product of having switched school FOUR times in grade 2 that I quickly learned to adapt to being "the new kid" and cuse of that I naturally lk to make new ppl feel comfortable around me...i was always the kid at school that told the new kid to come play with our group...cuse i knew what it was lk to feel outta place...

I wish I was in Toronto to be able to tell my friend to come "play with my group of friends at recess"....unfortunately she will just have to wait until August when i'm done my final term here....Toronto be prepared cuse I AM COMING HOME FOR THE MONTH OF AUGUST BABY!!!...woohoo!!!!!!!...can't wait